For the Love of … Rice???

Yesterday was like any other day; work, homeschooling, more work, cleaning, shopping, cooking... Then came the rice... Curious? Well, you are in for quite a treat with this one. Again, I find myself in the awkward position of sharing a bit too much of us in an effort to heal and help myself and reach others...Let me get right to it.Last night, I made my husband's favorite meal; pepper steak over rice. He LOVES it! I do not make it very often because the meat for it is a bit pricy for this budget minded Momma. However, I wanted to do something special for him and my youngest daughter since it is her favorite too.Everything seemed to be going fine. Hubbie was sharing work stories and we were all enjoying our meal. Until... I saw him make a second full plate of dinner. Now, normally, he has one full plate and then maybe a couple bites more since he loves it so much. Not this time. He pigged out. I did not say anything at this point. In the back of my mind though, I was thinking about whether there would be enough for his work lunch. (He likes to take leftovers for lunch the next day.)I did not have to wait long to find out.He opens the rice pot and sees that there is only about half of what he would like to go with the meat, sauce and pepper portion of the meal.He rudely says to me; "You didn't make enough rice... AGAIN!"Now, for me, it is not what he said, but the WAY he said it.I reply; "I made the same amount of rice I ALWAYS do AND I … [Read more...]

Dark Phoenix

My husband is a sci-fi, comic book, star wars type movie lover. So, over the years, I have learned to deal with watching them. Some of them I actually enjoy and others I find dumb. The title of this post comes from an X-Men character. Jean Grey is the original character and she has a very dark side called Phoenix. When she was taken over by this dark force she became a very grumpy gal, and will incinerate you if she feels the urge to. She has quite a nasty temper, ladies...Well...I have a confession. I have an evil twin: Dark Phoenix I can be quite feisty, temperamental and downright grumpy--especially in the morning before coffee.On the flip side; my darling husband is more like Larry the Cucumber from Veggie Tales: Quirky...happy and he even sings and dances. It annoys me beyond measure at certain times. Especially when he pokes and picks at me--KNOWING that I am weak in the morning and that lovely time of month. There are times that I want to be serious, left alone or just not deal with silliness. His silliness was an endearing quality when we first got together, but over the years, it became a source of annoyance--especially when I choose to give into my Dark Phoenix side. Cease from anger and forsake wrath; fret not yourself–it tends only to evildoing. - Psalm 37:8 (amplified) Yes, I have a weakness. It is called a temper. It is rooted in my past. It was planted in me as a child over years of sexual abuse and emotional neglect. Later, in adulthood it … [Read more...]